Heather Schild
1987 – 2023
Manchester, Tennessee

My name is Heather, I have 4 amazing sons, named Caden, Jordan, Jaxson and Christian. I am going to tell you, my story. I was born in Winchester, TN on January 15,1987 to Jeff Schild and Joy Frame. My Bonus daddy is Jewell Frame. My Paternal Grandparents are Jerry (Mary) Schild. My Maternal grandparents are Dewey Harris and Wanda Eastes. My bonus grandpa is Terry Moore.  My Brothers and sisters are Mandy (Matt) Griffith, Chelse (Tyler) Jones, Hunter (Izzy) Reeves, Jewell (Alicia) Frame, Jared (Keisha) Schild, Angel and Quade. I have a very special family. Including Uncles, Aunts, Cousins, Nieces and Nephews. I could go on and on about them all and name them all, but I want you to hear my story, and I hope it helps you.  I was a very happy little girl, and I love the lord. When I was a child, I was always the little girl that loved everyone. I was always the child that made sure that no other child was left out. If I knew you needed a friend, I was that friend. You could find me on the playground at school with a bible under a big oak tree telling the stories of Jesus with other children gathered around. My Mama and Nanny Wanda made sure I was at church every time the doors were open. My mama and nanny are my hero's. My big sissy Mandy is my best friend. Wherever I went as a child she was with me. My parents got a divorce at a young age. Mandy and I always had each other's back, we went to dads on the weekends and was with mom during the week.  We shared thoughts, clothes and a room together until we were teenagers.  When I was 12 years old, I found the wrong crowd and started smoking cigarettes, not long after that I found drugs I found Meth, pills, alcohol. It started when I was 12, I started getting into trouble and I even flipped my best friend's mama's car one morning before I was even old enough to drive. My sissy Mandy pulled me out of ditches, cars, houses. She came to my rescue every time even when I didn't want her to come. At 16 years old I dated a guy who committed suicide, my world crumbled, and I started partying harder. I wouldn't listen to my father, Mother, Nanny or anyone else.  (2006) At 18 years old I had a son Caden, he is my world. Caden I am so proud of you and the things you have accomplished already, your heart is pure gold, the way you look at things in life and the steps you take to accomplish every goal you set for yourself. I want you to know son that I will see you again one day and I'm in heaven cheering you on. Caden's dad and I separated, and I continued living my wildlife. I never forgot God I went to church, I prayed and then found myself going back down the same road again. I fought the battle of drugs, and I fought it hard. I found myself in and out of jail several times. I then had another little precious boy Jordan, when I was pregnant with Jordan, I found myself in jail once again. This time I was scared I had another little boy on the way, one at home and I was in jail. Why? Because I continued down the same path of drugs. I got out of jail; got married and my beautiful little boy Jordan was born, and I was over the moon. Jordan, I want you to know that mama loves you so very much. I'm so proud of you and I'm watching down from heaven. Jordan, I see your pain but don't cry because mama is finally free. I'm sitting on the right side of my father Jesus. I know you miss me, but you will see me again my son. I lived the life of being home with my children for a couple of years. I struggled and I failed but God always brought me out of it. Through my families' prayers and my love, I had for him. A few years later I had another little boy Jaxson. Oh, Little Jax mama loves you so much. I'm proud of you and you're so smart. Jaxson, I want you to know that I'm always nearby. I have a big mansion in heaven Jaxson. There are streets of Gold here, everyone is happy and so am I. I love my new home, even though I miss you very much. I'm free here Jaxson. Mama is better this time forever. Caden Drugs didn't win. I won Caden I got to heaven with Jesus. I finally won my battle I have been fighting for many years son. After Jaxson was born, I once again went back to the drug life. This time it was worse than ever. My husband and I at the time got a divorce and I moved on. I got pregnant once again and I had another son named Christian. I got in another relationship, and I continued doing drugs. Christain was born with complications. We had to stay at the hospital for a few days, but I finally got to bring my baby home. Christian baby, I love you with all my heart, Son don't ever be sad because mama is with you. Talk to me at night, when you see the stars, I am up there. Christian I am with you always. One day I will see you again, one day very soon when Jesus bust them eastern skies you will see me again. Christain listen to nanny and papa Jewell and always follow Jesus and I'll be waiting on you. Don't ever forget that mama loves all of you boys and you all are my pride and joy. Boys one mistake I didn't make in life was being your mama. I hope you all four know how much I love you all.
 I now had three of my boys at home, Caden lived with his dad and oh how I wish he was with us. The choices I made resulted in that. I fought to get my baby back home with me. The drugs just had me bound; they were stronger than I was. But they were not stronger than my Lord. I was finally home once again with my little family. We worked, bought a vehicle and had a home. One fall day our home burnt; we lost everything. Here I go spiraling once again.   We were a normal family. We lived normally for a couple years, then it happened we got caught one night, I had my three youngest boys with me. Guess what? Back to jail we went, My future husband and myself. Our three youngest boys were in states custody and there was absolutely nothing anyone could do about it. I was in jail, looking at a long time. My Bonus daddy Jewell and my mama fought and fought. They did that a lot for me. As I got older and deeper into drugs my sister Mandy and I drifted apart some. She was there when I needed her, but she couldn't be there all the time she had her own family. There were nights though that Mandy and Matt came looking for me. My mama and Jewell got custody of my younger boys finally. We got out of jail, and we did still have a vehicle. We took that vehicle title that we owned, and we pawned it. We both got jobs and went to church, and we stayed clean. We got an apartment, fought to get our kids back and we did it. We went on family vacations, and we lived life. I loved my job and even bought me an almost brand-new SUV. We got married and this is what life was all about. We battled and slipped but didn't fail for several years.  My sister Chelse was there a lot she helped me pick the kids up from school along with my mama and they both helped us succeed. What? I was thriving, I was living, and it felt wonderful. Chelse, I want you to know that I love you so much and I'm so proud of you. Chelse, can you believe I'm free now? There are no more drugs in my future. I live on streets of Gold Chelse. Thank you, sissy, for always being an inspiration to me. Thank you for helping me with the boys. Always tell them how much I love them, Sissy. I'll see you again. Don't be sad, be happy for me I'm living life now. There is no sadness here. I may have got carried away talking to my sissy but oh she is so special to me.  After several years of having a wonderful life and living, once again I failed, this time I was deeper than ever before. Guess what I wrecked my car, that nice SUV that I worked hard for and was so proud of was now gone. I was slowly losing everything because of drugs. Well, who is going to come to my rescue now. I need a car very bad. Oh, Hunter my little brother he was there. He was always there when I needed him. Hunter Mi so sorry form making you worry. I know how much you love me. Hunter I'm so proud of you and all your accomplishments little brother. When you get married, I will be there, just look up into the clouds and I'll be looking down. Don't you know I have the best seat in the house. Hunter don't ever change with your big heart and your selfless acts. You're just another one of my hero's. Ok, Hunter I got to finish my story because you know me and no matter what it took, I always tried to help others even if it took losing everything. back to my life: My husband went to rehab because they gave him the choice when he got in trouble, he got out of that and not many months later he went to jail, and I met a guy. Yes, I defiantly met a guy. I thought he hung the moon. My family knew this one was dangerous. They had prayer meeting every night over facetime. I was there number 1 topic. Over and over again Jewell would say let's pray for Heather. Something has got to give, or she is either going to die or end up in prison. This went on for several months. Then it went to if something doesn't give Heather is not going to make it much longer. At this point Mama and Jewell went and took emergency custody of my three younger boys. I was sad but I met a guy, and I knew my boys was safe. I could stay the night with them or see them anytime. I was going to hang on to this guy, guess what he used to preach, and you know what else I could get him back to the lord and myself right. Just give me some time I can fix him. Hey, you have to meet my family. Let me introduce you to my mama and Jewell. Well, Jewell You didn't have to tell him to stay away from me. I think I love him. Why Jewell, why did you tell him to stay away from me? He isn't bad, he was a preacher.  Jewell, I love you so much and I appreciate all the times you tried to help me. I know now what you were trying to tell me. I know that you just loved me and wanted the best for me. I'm so sorry for the way I acted. Jewell when you get up here with me, I can't wait to show you, my mansion. I love you with all my heart and I'm so proud God placed you in my life. We will get straightened out, get the boys back, go to church and have a normal life. He tells me all the things I want to hear. I am going to get a divorce help him straighten up and we are going to be a family and I'm going to be so happy. Oh, I think I will call my sister Mandy and check on her and my daddy and see how they are doing. I haven't seen them in a while. Guess what my sissy and dad is going to come and see me. I'm so excited, but I need money, I need to go see that guy tonight. Oh, they are here now, but Daddy I'm trying and I'm going to get straighten out. I'm so happy that you came and seen me, Sissy. He isn't a bad guy. I promise nothing is going to happen to me and you're not going to have to bury me daddy. Goodness, you know better, and no I'm not going to stay with you daddy. I got to get my life straightened out. I do love you so much and I promise I'll get it together. Before you leave can I borrow some money. Well, the next Sunday I felt God, and I got baptized at church. God is going to so it this time. I got to get my life together. I left church and that guy was waiting on me. I'm so excited. I guess they had that prayer call again, because guess who just knocked on my door, Mandy, Matt, Hunter, Chelse, Tyler little Jewell, and Payton! Oh, I feel special, these people really love me. Hey, what are all you doing here? Is this an intervention? Oh, my goodness you really think I need an intervention. Are y'all crazy? Heather we are not crazy, we love you and we want to help you. I don't need help though; I'm going to get my life back together. I'm not on drugs, I met this guy he is going to take care of me. Chelse, I love you too.  (Chelse sit down in front of me and got eye to eye with me, she told me Heather, I love you so much. You're my big sissy and I don't want to lose you as she held on to my legs screaming and crying. Heather please don't die. I don't want you to die. I love you and I need you, Heather.) Then one by one each of my brothers, cousin and brother n laws spoke to me. I can still Remember Matt saying Heather if you don't stop, I'm putting you in jail.  He told me to write each of my family members a letter that I wanted to tell them after I die. That I wanted to comfort them with. What? That's crazy I'm not going to die I thought. My sister Mandy was being stubborn, she wasn't going to say her speech, Matt told her Mandy you better talk to her this might be your last chance. She listened, she set down beside me laid her head on my shoulder and cried. She told me she loved me, and I had to stop. She pretty much demanded me to stop and to get my life back on track or she was going to make me, even funnier she was going to put me in jail, pop my tires or whatever she had to do but I was going to listen to her. If you know Mandy, she always thought she was my boss. She hated the fact that I wouldn't listen to her anymore. She was my older sister, and we were 18 months apart so she always protected me and thought she would save me from everything. But sissy there is this guy, and he is good to me. To all of you that came that day, I am free now. Thank you all for the intervention that was ordered from God above, it's something that you can hold onto now that I am gone. I'm not gone forever, just for a short time. Let me give you a word now, live for God and you will see me again.  I'm so happy now and I'm free from drugs. Well, a few days have passed, and I'm headed to rehab it may be in the middle of night but guess who came to my rescue, yes, my mama and Jewell they always came to my rescue. I am checking myself in rehab because I have to straighten my life up.  I have now been in rehab for a couple weeks; I am actually helping others in here and it feels so good. I will get to go home soon, and I can't wait to see my babies and my family. Today we wrote our kids a letter, not just any letter it was a letter for them when I die. I don't know why they make us do this. I'm in rehab now I'm not going to die. Well, it's finally time for me to come home and I'm so excited. I am at my mom's with my babies, Mandy, Matt, and my nephews and nieces came over. Us girls ran to Walmart while Matt and Jewell fixed something. We ran to get food. I was telling Mandy about this guy. I'm finally going out on a real date to Top Golf. Chelse is going to fix my hair and makeup. I'm so excited. It's been a good day. Two weeks have passed, and this guy and I are getting along good. I got a job, and I start tomorrow I can hardly contain the feeling of excitement. But as life would have it things are about to take a drastic turn for the worse. Suddenly there is a cop behind us, he is pulling us over. To my surprise and as my luck would have it you guested it, he had drugs in the car. I felt that I had to protect him, so I told him to give the drugs to me I didn't want him or myself to go to jail. What he told me it wouldn't hurt me turned out to be so much more. Almost suddenly I started to not feel well. I was with the only person that I thought I could trust at the moment. I knew I needed help. I trusted you and you told me it wouldn't hurt me. Thats why I swallowed it. I was looking forward to this date and time together. I was looking forward to finally having a boyfriend I could be proud of. But instead, you knowingly gave me drugs that you knew was laced with fentanyl. I can feel time slowing down. It has been less than 15 minutes since the officer had pulled us over. But here they come again for the 2nd time. Officer, you saw that I was in distress. You told people that you knew something was wrong. You told people you saw me acting funny and sweating excessively. But you done nothing. You were more concerned about people from Bonnaroo. Could it have been that you didn't have the Narcan available because it was all put at the Bonnaroo event? Could it have been your way of getting rid of someone you thought was a no-good drug addict? I guess myself or my family will never get those answers. This guy I thought was my saving grace killed me, he gave me his drugs and they killed me. He didn't take me to the hospital instead he drives miles in the opposite direction to take me to his friend's house to call 911. Why didn't you take me to the hospital it was closer? I'm unconscious on the ground, the CPR isn't working, my chest is hurting, I'm sweating so bad. Is this it now, I die, what about my family? My children, oh my little nanny and all the prayers she has prayed for me, and this is how I die. Nanny, I want you to know your prayers didn't go in vain. I'm with the lord now. I'm at peace. Thank you for being such a light to me in a dark place. thank you for all your prayers, your help. I'm sorry Nanny I wish I could have stayed longer but, the lord was ready for me. He knew this was my way out of the battle I fought so hard. I'll be up here when you get here nanny. I love you so much. The ambulance is here, oh and the cop, they have no Narcan and I'm dying. it's been 45 minutes now and I'm at the hospital. The nurses are working hard on me to get me back. I can hear my family they are all in the waiting room. Oh, what did you say nurse it's time for them to come in to see me. I can hear them crying and praying. Oh, what did I do? This guy, what did he do to me. I was only trying to save him, and I lost myself. My little mama I can hear her. Hey Mama, I'm sorry, I love you so much. Mama don't cry, I have made it right with the lord. Mama, you raised me right and I know where my help comes from. They are taking me upstairs now to ICU they say I may pull through out of this but they aren't sure. Now I know the drugs didn't love me but, my family did. The drugs don't love you either if you are reading this, but your family does. I can hear my family praying and surrounding my bedside. I hear the doctor telling them if I pull though it will be a miracle. Its morning now and I'm fading. My time on earth is finished. Don't be sad for me Rejoice in the lord for I am with him. My trials and battles on earth are now finished. I am forever healed, and all my scars have vanished. Oh, family don't cry, this is only an ole earthly body you are grieving over for my soul is with Jesus my savior. I now walk down streets of gold and live in my own mansion. I sit at the feet of Jesus, and I worship him constantly. If you could only get a small glimpse of me, you would rejoice. Please don't cry for me my babies. Mama will always be with you, in your heart. Listen to the wind on a crisp fall morning. I will send you signs that I am with you. Nanny watch out your window and look for the red bird that comes to your porch and remember I am now healed and with the lord. I have no more battles to fight. I have more pain to feel. To all my family that's fighting addiction, let me lead you in the right direction. I am waiting for you in heaven, Fight and make it to me. To everyone reading my story: Learn from my mistakes and always remember that drugs do not love you, but your family does. Your family needs you and it's not too late. You see it wasn't too late for me either because I made it right with the lord and I won my battle. God gave me those few minutes to ask for forgiveness, your story may be different.

Wrote with love in honor about the life that I knew of my little sister,
Heather Elizabeth Schild